Below is a letter written from a man in prison – soon to be released – looking for a home plan – looking for help. His story is not unique, the incarcerated need people to show them the love of Christ inside and outside the prison walls. Read his story…if only we were this honest about ourselves and our need for a Savior.
My name is _______ (we will call him Tom) and not sure how to even start with this letter. First off I will just keep it honest with you because I’ve spent most of life hiding things. I’m from _________, MO and this is my 10th time through the Department of Corrections. I’ve done around 15 years in jails and prisons. I’ve been married 3 times, lived through 2 drunken car crashes, 3 overdoses of cocaine with my heart stopping once. Years of running after alcoholic, drug addicted women. I’ve robbed people, been a thief, a liar, used whoever I could, been shot in my leg in a bad drug deal. My girlfriend of 10 years died of an overdose a few years back. I’ve lost all trust with my family and have no real friends. All this adds up to…I’m a big piece of crap. That’s the worst of who I’ve been but there’s the part of feeling like there’s nothing inside of me but emptiness and just a shell of a person. I’ve been locked up this time for only a year and a half. This time is different for me because I’m exhausted and just can’t do me anymore.
I’ve seen God change other people’s lives and I want Him to fix me too.
I’ve seen God change other people’s lives and I want Him to fix me too. Nothing I’ve ever done has lasted for myself and people of the Lord keep telling me it’s because I haven’t surrendered to Him. I need a lot of work but I’m trying to become more of God and need some guidance. I want the old me dead and gone without worry that I’ve ever got to worry about reliving an old life style. I’ve prayed and asked God into my life but don’t know how to let Him control it. I’m in the Maryville Treatment Center and have around 30 days left before my out date. I feel something is pulling me there (this particular home plan) after I had a talk with another inmate about a guy that went there and how his life changed. Is this what He wants me to do? I don’t know but I need help and want help in finding a new me. I was told by a preacher that God told him I would preach the Word of the Lord. That was about 6 years ago and I thought he lost his mind. Then another man of God told me the same thing a few years back when I told him the Bible is the greatest fairy tale ever told. I really don’t know what I think about two men of God telling me that I was blessed and will preach the Word. I don’t even know the Bible except a few of the things that happened in it. I do like to talk bout God because I feel it’s the right thing to do, but it’s all new to me. My prison record will show you two felony assaults with my brother, thefts, stolen cars, misdemeanor assaults, property damage, burglary, and DWIs. I have no sex crimes and I’m not a creep, thank God for that favor. I just turned 50 but I’m as healthy as any man in his late 20s and can out work most young people. I’ve put in for other home plans with sober living homes and other places but they won’t touch me. I’m not a mean person or someone who would break the law once I’m cleaned up like I am now. I know in my heart I never want to drink alcohol or use drugs again more than I ever have. I want to start a new life in a new place and learn to let God do His work on me. Will you help me?
Will you help me?
I have a life story that would shock most people of my upbringing. I come from a hard life of abuse and a drug dealing father. A drunken mother that beat me till I was old enough to hurt her back. If you accept me I can share the story, it’s more than I can write for now.
I hope this bit of info about myself will give you some idea of who I am and what I’m looking for. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life as an unhappy inmate in the Department of Corrections. I truly need and want to be around people that can somewhat relate to where I’ve been. Even though I’m around so many other men I feel alone and no one really cares about the next person. I’ve seen things over the years that would make most anyone sick. I hate prison and believe me when I say I hate bullies as well. I’ve always stuck up for the weak in prison and its gotten my head busted a few times. I don’t know what else to say except this is the first time I’ve just opened up and dumped all my dirty life on paper. I figure trying to cover up and hide anything would be the wrong way to try starting a new road. If you could please send me a letter and let me know one way or the other as soon as you can I would be very grateful.
This is another reason we go into the prisons, to offer the Hope of the Gospel, so they can begin this New Life and grow in their faith before they are even released. The next time you encounter someone who has been to prison, will you offer them the love of Jesus? Will you answer the question…Will You Help Me?